Aliveness

With all the glory

how I achieved a life,

when I can't find me in me

I dare to ask

"Who am I?"

"Where am I?"

"How am I?"

"What am I?"

When I can't find any voice

The passive player, me

dares to ask, again

"Am I alive?"

"Is aliveness alive?"

The second thought,

arises, answering

A hope, I am living

A dream, I am pursuing

A thought, I am believing

A question, I am raising

aren't  these aliveness?

Yes, aliveness is alive.

And aliveness asks me,

"Are you alive?"

The next thought,

ceases me, inside me

all questions dead

all thoughts scattered,

raising the silence,

I dare to think again,

and start listening

a voice in me.

shall I believe, I am alive

I fear death, am I alive?

I have seen and heard,

women burnt for dowry

Couldn't  raise a single question, am I alive?

I have seen, worked for

the corrupted ones,

Couldn't  dare raising a protest, am I alive?

I can see, 

Children, without means of education

Couldn't  raise voice for them, am I alive?

So, I dare to doubt

again and again,

"Am I alive?"

"Is aliveness alive?"

My poisoned heart,

arises, answering me

with silence,

a complete silence.

The shot questions,

Alive emptiness,

I dare to ask again ,

I can see

Female feticide,

Domestic violence,

Sexual abuse,

Chhaupadi,

Rape,

Dowry,

Poverty,

Corruption,

Illiteracy,

and above all murders,

But all I care

Price tag of dress at Kathmandu mall,

Recent movie at QFX movie hall,

My settlement at Kathmandu,

That's why,

I suspect, my glory of life 

and dare to ask

"Am I alive?"

"Is my aliveness alive?"