A Gloomy Moon

what if , I say you
I am a gloomy moon,
that lights in phases,
one day as darkness,
and a day as full moon
and easily accepts

existence of other lights,

either a candle or a bulb
who understand meaning of
each individual fights.

oh!darling, I know,
you don't understand
such stories of loss
you have learnt,
to shine alone,
like the sun does, each day
taking out other's existence .

oh!darling , I know you!

एउटा सत्य

उता तिम्रो विदेश यात्रा, यता मेरो बलात्कृत शरीर

उता तिम्रो डलरको आगमन, यता मेरो दहकिएको मुटु

कहिले म नारी भएको नाममा,

कहिले म अशक्त भएको समयमा,

कहीं मेरो गरिबी को आडमा,

कहिले देशमा भुकम्प गएको सालमा,

तिमी अरबौं डलर को व्यापार गर,

म संधै बलात्कृत भइरहने छु,

आखिर तिम्रो पेट पाल्न,

तिम्रा सन्तान विदेश पठाउन,

चुनावको बेला दुइ छाक खाएर,

मैले तिमीलाई जुन मत दिए,

त्यस्का लागि मेरो शरीर बलि चढ्नै पर्छ,

मेरो आसुं बेचिनै पर्छ।

तिम्रो युरोप भ्रमणको लागि,

मेरो गरिबी बेचिनै पर्छ,

तिम्रो पेरिसको सपिंगको लागि,

म अशक्त हुनै पर्छ,

तिम्रो अगाडी पछाडी रक्षक हुन,

म भोकै सुत्नै पर्छ,

भो भयो नगर आब न्यायका भाषण,

तिमीले सत्ता बचाईराख्न,

मैले अन्याय सहनैपर्छ।

Don't Make it a Taboo, It's Natural !

Menstruation also called:  periods. One of the most common phenomena of the world in women.

A step towards motherhood. A regular physical, mental stress. A less discussed truth in our society.

She goes through extreme pain, but that is too much of a shame to discuss. Not a good enough reason to give her a break from work. We talk about hygiene, we proudly discuss diseases, but how many times has someone discussed menstrual hygiene? Neither is it stated as basic needs nor an optional one. But listen to me, maybe you don’t need it but I am a woman so, from age of 12 to 50, it’s my basic need.

Reusable Pads
Photo Credit: Working as Angels 

Period drops of blood are waste of body they say, they need to be disposed of properly. Women go through a severe hormonal change during that time of the month, they are mentally and physically distressed, they not only need to maintain hygiene but also need love and care. Oh! And be careful, you cannot enter religious places during that time of the month, a hidden bar stands. But do the goddesses also take a leave 4 days a month? Makes us wonder…

I am an independent working woman of the 21^st century, or so as they call it, I talk about women and their equality but why am I still not open and confident to discuss menstruation openly? Why when it’s about period either awkwardness or embarrassment takes over? I don’t know why I still cannot ask my father or brother to prepare a hot water bag for me or I don’t ask my boss for leave because I just started with my monthly natural call. I still cannot express my pain and ask them for a Meftal spa, why it can’t be them sometimes who can get me a sanitary pad.

Why do I still cover up my menstrual pain with a headache or stomach ache? Why do I still say “I am not feeling well”, why can’t I say “I am having menstrual cramps”.

And why when I ask the shopkeeper for a pad, he looks around for a newspaper to wrap it in. Why can’t a public eye digest the fact that “YES I am a woman, yes I go through menstruation cycle and yes I use a pad? So What?” Let me clear you more, my uterus bleeds every month so for caring it I need sanitary pads.

The starting point of every life is the same blood which when comes out as a monthly cycle, is a disgrace to the society, not only life begins there, they spend 9 months of their life in that cocoon, that shelter doesn’t differentiate a girl or a boy. But as soon as they are out of it, then it is a shame to talk about. Isn’t it high time we push for a change? Let’s discuss menstrual hygiene and make healthy maternal health. Let’s understand the emotional, physical and mental stress a woman suffers every month. All we need to do is, care for them a little more. 

The Texts

Casual texts,

Expressing love,
Carrying dreams.
Every night visits me,
With a life,
We could have lived,
With a love
We could have expressed,
With the family
We could have made,
With the smiles
We could have shared.
Leaves me
With reverberating souls,
Decked heart,

With despair hopes.
As morning awakes
From its deep sleep
And terrifies them
Of consent death.
Oh! Poor texts.

नयन कथा

आफ्नो मुहार खोज्छू, ती नयनमा
तर भेट्दिन।
आफ्ना आकार खोज्छू, त्यो मुटुमा
अहं भेट्दिन।
आफ्नो संसार खोज्छु, त्यो हृदयमा
कठै! भेट्दिन।
आफ्नै संस्कार खोज्छु, ती छविमा
कतै भेट्दिन।


अनि फर्किन्छु, आफ्नै एकान्तमा,
छुट्टै संसार बनाउन,
एक्लै रमाउन,
मुटुको भारी फुकाउन,
तिम्रा लागि सजाएका, सपनाको संसार चुडाउन ।

Biodata for Marriage

Unquestionably it was not the first time I have heard the word biodata when my mom asked for a copy of it. I got amazed or will be better to say shocked. I could not even predict why she needs it. So, politely I replied her including some smiles,” Mom I already have a good job and I am satisfied with it and you are not getting a job at this age even if you go with my bio-data. ” She replied, “There are some social uses of bio-data too. I am searching a life partner for you and boy’s family needs your bio-data.”

For fixing daughter’s marriage girl’s side should approach boy’s house, a culture of Terai. Needless to say, as we have heard, the dowry gets fixed there but I have heard these days lots of marriages are even dowryless. I was aware of all that but using biodata for marriage purpose was completely a new concept to me. When I was a kid, my aunt and uncle got married, then girl’s picture was all that a family takes to show the boy side. From when since bio-data started? No idea at all!

I chatted to some of my newly married girlfriends from Janakpur, “do girl’s family really carry their bio-data too if they are going for a marriage proposal?” They replied me quite easily with the same answer, “Yes it’s been since years.” I realized I am the obsolete one, having no idea of current marriage trends. I recalled all the marriages I have been especially during the fixing but could not find a single bio-data in my memory. You can say my mind was bio-dataless.

So it was my turn to print a new copy of my bio-data. In the recent job system bio-data word is totally absent, definitely, every company demands your CV along with a cover letter. So I just thought to replace it with my recent CV. I wrote my personal details including my academic qualifications, facebook link, and blog address as well. Now I got confused, should I write my job experience there or not along with the company name? Am I supposed to write my technical skills like C, C++, Java? Should I include my extra-curricular achievements? Should I include my training and participations or not? What would the girl’s write if they demand a cover letter? And the most confusing part, what would be the subject of the cover letter? Last but not the least should I write about the references too, if yes then who would be the one? And what about the recommendation letter? How would be these things judged? Some of my confusions.

My confusions led me to analyze how time have changed. Ten years ago a girl’s beauty and her father’s duty to pay dowry were the factors that could only be the cause of marriage. But these days they care about a girl’s education, her ability, her skills and more that she has achieved yet. So, recently I have attended several arrange marriages at Janakpur and they are completely dowry-less and probably bio-data would have been one among the possible factors. Marriage system is getting changed. Even MA sociology syllabus of TU talks about Terai then it’s regarding the only dowry. So, their perceptions should be changed. Neither all the marriages in Terai are dowry based nor Terai is all about dowry. I am hopeful, someday all the marriage relations in our society would be based on compatibility between going to be partners and definitely, in-laws would be proud of their new member’s bio-data and would help her to make it better. 

Diverse Life

As the counting of seconds are increasing in my life, I feel getting closer to a single sentence, “Life is all about diversity.” Each second of life is very different from the its successors and predecessors.  Someday, I get up very early with a very happy mood but when I get to bed I am really upset, on the same day, and vice-versa. In some seasons I am ok in my pajamas and in the next I demand woolen clothes and again in the next those woolen are waste, I am looking for pajamas only. On somedays I cannot move a single step without umbrella and on some days I feel them useless. Some moments, my face is faded with tears and later my lips are detaching to explore smiles. Same movies are favorite for some of us while others hate it. Some people are crazy fans of cricket, whereas some find it a complete waste of time.

During childhood, I felt quite confused with why don’t everyone studies science and becomes scientist. Later I came to know, I don’t have the idea of versatility of each subjects. As I grew up I got to know the theory of diversity. And I found, neither scientists alone can handle the world nor the artists. Fools are equally important as wise ones. They have different roles contributing to world. One of them can never replace the other. So do the gender, caste, religion exists.

The most important part is how diversely you accept these diversities,either being happy or with tears. Life is not just about accepting those things as they are. Its about either we can mix our smiles with them or not and make them more diverse than they are. All the diversities come to every single person same ways but its our attitude that makes it more diverse. There lies a single line between happiness and sorrow i.e. the acceptance. Some incidents comes to us in very unknown ways, may be they are failures, dissatisfaction, poverty etc. the way of acceptance defines them. Life is not all about expecting the similar things that is used to for us, its about accepting the unexpected ones with beautiful smiles. Life is definitely a puzzle and its solution lies in the diversity of smiles and laughter.

The most diverse part lies in, at some part of our life we are just a kid which continues forming us a school student  later a university student and then an employee. And the most diverting part is later we give a similar life to our kids. And the world is continued due to the diverse phases of human life.

World without diversities cannot be even imagined. The sun is beautiful because of its diverse colors and the moon is beautiful because of its beautiful scars. The nature is beautiful because of its diverse colors. The mountain is beautiful because of its diverse views. The novel are good because of its diverse readers. The organization is successful due to diverse employees. A person is beautiful because of its diverse characters as child, student, parents, professions, words. So, beauty lies in diversity and its acceptance.